3 posts tagged “god”

I got back from camp Saturday.. even though no one cares I want to write about what happened..

1. I got pissed at some people cause they like to start drama... so yeahh...
2. I told two people my whole life story.. because they were talking about keeping things in your heart and that just keeps you farther away from God.. and it really does. So I told my counseler who actually went through an eating disorder so she understood that part.. and than I told Katie.. who pissed me off sooooo badd! I mean I told her than she was a total ass ( yeah I didn't stop cursing..). I mean I hate the fact that I told her but maybe it was a good thing. Maybe now she will relize that there is soooo much more out there and she needs to get out of her dumb box..
3. I made a pact with God. He gives me strength and I will strive (with him walking by me of course) and I will actually give him a half hour of my day. I told him to have faith in me and I will return the favor.. I told him to just watch me live the plan he has for me.. even though I am still going to be going through trouble.
4. I still don't know the answer to "Why??" but I have a feeling God isn't done writing my story and I have to be even more patient and sooner or later I will have the answers I need.
5. I just kinda relized that I love having my eating disorder. It is comfort for me. I mean not eating makes me feel better and I actually like doing it. I feel like I have control over that and no one can stop me from it.. unlike a thousand other things in my life. So I don't know what that means..
6. I guess camp helped me relize that I do have a purpose and that I have to keep helping other people before I help myself.. I don't know why God wants that but I know he does. I also relized I have to have more patience with God and other people cause you can be amazed what you discovered. Oh, yeah... I relized.. people are kinda "freaked out" by the way I view life.. I mean not like "OMG" freaked out but I mean they just don't expect that from a 14 year old. I'm not dumb.. I know what I am doing and I think it out.. I refuse to follow other people's ideas of "normal". I honsestly believe God me wants to be a little different so I can prove everyone wrong. I mean my whole life has been me following other people's opinions and I didn't listen to myself.. So I think God is going to give me the chance in the future to prove all those people that laughed in my face wrong.. hmmm.. we will see I guess.. =-)

Well everyone.. I am going to camp today and I won't be back till Saturday. I am still having some family issues and I am having eating problems still.. but I personally think I am losing weight little by little.. but personally it is not enough.. So I hope going to Bible camp will help me like it always does.. God always opens my eyes when I get there. So maybe I will stop starving myself.. maybe not.. I am not getting much support from the people I know but we will see. I hope everyone has a good week!

God Bless!
- Jaime

If you could ask any question in the world and get a true answer, who and what would you ask? 
Submitted by jaypo.

WoW.. I just got asked this question in school today??

My first thought was "Why did the things happen in my life??"
Or , "What's my purpose??"

Everyone has questions about life.. but don't those questions make your life??
People strive to find answers everyday because they have questions they want to have answered...

To me it's the same as if someone asked you if you wanted to know the day you died.
No.. I don't because I bet I wouldn't live my life the way it was ment to me.. Some people think if they knew the day they died they would live life more.. but your not really living if you know your just doing this cause your gonna die..

So I answer with a question... "What's the point of knowing??"
I have lived my life for the past 2 years struggling to find answers that I'll never get.. but it's for the better..
Something bad happens in your life and you instantly ask "Why!!??" But I bet a couple years later if you thought about it.. you would know why...

My point is I want to find those answers by living my life and finding it MY way.. I grow more learning the answers from within myself.. Yea. it may sound dorky.. but life is a journey.. its a struggle...
When it comes down to it.. it's just you and God.. life is about finding who YOU are and growing and learning from the bad and seeing the good and taking that and appling that to your life...
Without those unanswered questions.. you wouldn't grow or learn anything.. and life just wouldn't be life any more..