New Year's Resolution?? WTF??
Yea.. I made a new year's resolution.. pathetic?? maybe.
New Year's Resolution
~ The past is the past I'm gonna find the future.
Now, my whole life has been cry cry over the past or of some dumb thing that happened. Yea there is a time to cry but I can't be sad forever. I'm telling this to everyone and I think everyone should take this into consideration. Your life with have some of the crappiest times but there is always a light and a reason. I'm a strong believer of that. I'm living proof of that. I haven't quite found certain reasons for some things but I know I will.
Also, I believe I've become stronger than I ever thought I was. Last year I thought I could conquer anything without anyone's help (even God at certain points.) But I was torn down and proved wrong. Things happend last year and at one point I stopped and said "No, I refuse to do this anymore. I need my life back!" I plan on getting it back.
I'm 13 and turning 14 March 31. I am going to High School in August and honestly I couldn't be happier. I need that new beginning. I know I need to change as I person. I think I have said this in a previous blog but I'm not comfortable where I am in my life. I know what I need to change and I plan on changing it. Part of it is getting rid of people in my life. Other parts are giving people choices: You either want me in your life or you don't. Simple. I'm tired of depending on other people and caring what people think. It truly affects me everyday.
This is a huge change in my life. I will probably never truly except my life for what it is but I can live with it and be happy can't I?? I'm changing and no one can stand in my way.. not my father.. my mother.. my sister.. or even "friends". I'm beyond excited for the rest of my life. I think this is the first time that I may be happy and proud of myself.
I'm relieved that I FINALLY made this choice. I'm relizing things. I need to focus on God and me. I need to find out who I am before I worry about other people. I'm fine with that.
My life may be finally turning the direction it should be..
*It doesn't matter where your coming from, all that matters is where your going.*
