Happy Birthday my ass..

I'm gonna curse and it's gonna piss me off.. You know.. I sure complain a lot.. but I would like to think I have a good excuse for doing it. Since the 6th grade I've had a shitty ass birthday. (sorry for the curse words ahead of time.) Why in the hell do I try anymore?? You know I took like 20 steps forward this year and I feel like I've taken 18 back. I do a lot of crap for people. I try to be a decent person. So why in the fuck.. do I get the beating?? Why do I get the bullshit?? All I get is a Happy fucking birthday. After all I do. Gosh damn.. I hate complaining like this. I try hard to be happy and to please people. Now I'm so low.. it doesn't even matter. I just don't want to talk to people for like a week. I haven't been looking forward to holidays or anything for the past 2 years. I didn't have high expectations for my birthday. Yeaa.. 14 isn't THAT wonderful. But you would think someone in this damn world would care. I mean you would think?! Am I just an emo freakk. No more.. this is bull. Bye for now.. I'm done. Don't bother to try to comfort me...